I cut and sharpened my business choppers at a Fortune 50 company where I learned how to grow my credibility and power over time
and then learned how to lose it overnight.
Surviving and Thriving in My Fraud Job
Bored and not earning enough money as a teacher, I decided to head for the fertile ground of the high tech industry which was growing like crazy at the time. A certificate course in technical writing for the software industry would be my ticket. Soon after graduating, Anonymous Inc. offered me a technical trainer position. It happened at a job fair and went pretty much as follows:
- I hand my resume to the recruiter.
- He looks at it for 20 seconds and says. “You can teach, and you understand technology. We need technical trainers. Are you interested?”
- “Yes.”
- The end
I was hired to teach computer assembly technicians how to diagnose and fix hardware problems before shipping the behemoth systems. I had no idea how to do that, so I quickly found a problem I could address. Most of the technicians and assembly line workers were afraid to use computers to run tests, track inventory, etc. They feared they would crash and burn the system. I designed and taught a course called The ABC’s of Computers to allay their fears. The course was fun, interactive and very popular. The demand was high and people really did become more competent at their jobs, so I was spared from having to teach what I didn’t know. I also earned a solid reputation.
Within a year I left my fraud job and settled into Management Development. Because it played to my strengths I was good. Truth be told, I was excellent.
Gaining Credibility and Power with Love
I fell into the hands of an incredible mentor-sponsor who operated out of love and respect for the people around her. She decided Anonymous would pay for me to earn my master’s degree in organization development, a capability the company needed for its future. In return I shared what I learned with my peers.
I was in love. With my work. Love begets love, so I got more notice, more sponsors and within a few years had the respect of my peers and a number of senior line managers. I was soon named Senior Manager, Organization Development and had the opportunity to mentor and sponsor others.
Sitting Atop My High Horse
Howard, the most senior Organization Development Manager at Anonymous, tapped me to do some work with Frank, an executive in Field Service, and his team. Howard and I discussed the work briefly at the outset.
I was appalled by what I saw. During one particular meeting Frank and his staff were seated around a Polycom conference phone, perched in the center of a table like a shrine, awaiting a call from the SVP of Field Service. An announcement came though that the call was delayed, and one staff member stood up to leave for the rest room, politely stating, “Hope you don’t mind if I step out for a minute.” “Well, I do, so sit down.” Frank retorted. It felt like some sort of cult gathering with Frank commanding when and who could have bathroom breaks, water, or food. This was the “crippling hold” Frank’s team members had described to me in private. It was also clear they mistook their lack of understanding for what he said as a sign of his brilliance. I thought he simply made no sense. My attempts to strengthen the team’s capacity to give Frank feedback went nowhere, so I decided I to speak with him myself.
I donned my high horse with no information about Frank’s degree of influence or power in the company or with whom he held sway, and onward I rode. “The most significant problem with the team is you. You lead in ways that cause people to shrink. They have no power and they lose their intelligence. This is not an effective way to do business, and I cannot imagine you will succeed or go any further in your career unless you make some changes. In fact, if you don’t change, I imagine you may not be here much longer.” I don’t remember what he said, and I don’t think I cared all that much. I thought it was a lost cause, and this was my last attempt to intervene in a way that might have any effect whatsoever.
Losing Power on My Fall from High Horse
A year later there was an opening for an Organization Development manager who would be a peer to Howard. I was invited to apply. I considered it a slam dunk and was more than surprised when someone else was selected. My manager at the time was kind enough to tell me that Howard cast the dissenting vote, and he was adamant. It took me months to understand what happened and to eat that horrid crow dinner Howard prepared for me when I arrived at his door with questions and an apology.
The meal included several courses of new information. Following my feedback meeting Frank he went directly to Howard and asked or rather shouted, “Who is that woman? I will make sure she never works in Field Service again, ever. I want her fired.” Howard did what he could to calm Frank, and I wasn’t fired, but Howard felt slighted by my “lack of respect” for him. He thought as the senior person who referred me for the work, I should have sought his approval for the intervention with Frank. For my failure to do so, Howard put the kibash on my candidacy. The dilemmas was that I knew Howard rarely gave his clients deeply honest feedback, but instead served to further their ambitions and thereby achieved his own. Even so, I believe with a little more finesse and regard for the power dynamics of the situation I could have done what was needed with Howard’s support.
Learning from the Rise and the Fall
Here is what I took away from the experience of growing and losing power at Anonymous.
- Solve important problems even if they lie outside the strict boundaries of what you were hired to do
- Play on the learning edge of where the company is headed
- Respect power
- Being right and doing the right thing are not one and the same
- Go to the power sources for alignment before leaping into risk, especially if that risk involves other powerful sources
- Right does not make might and might does not make right
- The combination of might and right is probably best
Post Script
In the end, I was right about Frank. He was asked to leave, but being right got me only so far as the last rung on my shortened career ladder at Anonymous.
A few months ago I heard from two associates that Howard had joined their consulting firm, and left with a number of clients in tow, despite having signed a non-compete.
Wherefore art thou Karma?
Care to share your lessons on power?






Anne, I love the balloon analogy. In my experience there are people who represent the balloon and those who are only too happy to be the pin.
‘Balloon’ people work to inflate and empower not only themselves but also those around them so that everyone has the opportunity to show how high they can fly. ‘Pin’ people don’t quite see it that way. They only feel powerful when diminishing the efforts of others or casting the sharp point of blame away from themselves.
I get from your story that you actually did not “lose” your power. You may have been on a high horse about some things and perhaps run afoul of correct protocol. This seems to have resulted in your slipping a little out of the saddle, but there were others too, who gave you a push to ensure that you fell the rest of the way. So one of my own lessons about power is that it is never too far away from politics, for better or worse.
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Gwyn – You’ve taken the analogy further and it fits. I appreciate your support and the way you pick up the thread and the pin of this conversation. I am trying to understand for myself and others how to walk the tightrope of the power game in order to change it. Then again, perhaps we should just create a different game entirely, but it would be hard to displace the one that’s been around for decades. So much food for thought.
Hi, Anne – great story and possibly one with which many of us resonate.
You have made your points about working intelligently around power in corporations and I have nothing to add in that respect.
I will comment on the reality of corporate structures where people in positions of power and responsibility use their influence in negative ways. If I understand the situation, one person was somewhat of a control freak and adamant about maintaining that control, while another was “Political” and the capitalization is intentional.
This is why, even though life on my own is a struggle, I have little desire to return to a corporate job where honesty is not always a virtue and people’s self-serving behaviors are reinforced because of broken systems.
. . . or maybe I just don’t have the temperment to work internally anymore.
Either way, very interesting scenario and you appear to have taken some great lessons from it:)
John
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John – Thank you for stopping by and I appreciate your comments. You make me think more deeply and THAT is a very good thing. I recently had the pleasure of a 180 degree head spin on this issue while conducting research on how women who attain power roles deal with this issue. The exec, who runs a $300 million dollar business, said she believed strongly about some aspects of the culture that needed to change and decided to attain the power to make these changes real. She went on to say, “I am sure there are people who work in my organization who also think I am not leading on the right issues. I trust they will do what I did.” Before considering her perspective I hadn’t really seen that to someone else we may each be the “power” person who needs changing.
That being said, I too, prefer being outside someone else’s power structure.
Yakking from both sides of my mouth yet again. Or perhaps more elegantly stated as holding the tension between seeming opposites, which are in fact two points on a circle that actually touch each other.
Yours in collegiality – Anne
Hi Anne!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am in absolute awe of your background and experiences.
When I worked at a financial institution the person with the power was the internal auditor. If she didn’t “like” you, she made sure the president knew. Often times she provided jaded views of what was occurring along with inaccurate information. The most frustrating part was the fact that the president would go on a crusade based on her information without bothering to find out the facts. I managed to stay on her good side for a couple of years until one fateful day. It resulted in the worst meeting of my life with the president. It was also the best meeting because it revealed to me that I did not belong there and my talents were being wasted.
I think we have all experienced the power conundrum at one time or another. It’s shame when it gets in the way of potential success.
Cheers!
Kelly
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Kelly – Thanks for sharing you story as well. These things are often more painful than a stinging slap across the face. I’m glad yours revealed something that resulted in you being where you are now. Otherwise, we might not have met. I value who you are and what you do.
Anne I really love this piece. Thank you for your humility in describing an episode from a time when you were less politically savvy than you are now.
Early in my career I tried to avoid or sidestep politics – never a wise approach because organisational life has that political core that demands understanding and a light touch. I was fortunate to spend a few years in an organisation that had 150 employees – 149 women and one man. The dynamic was so different, and the politics of ego seemed genuinely not to be so strong (or was I naive?).
These days I often meet varieties of Frank who have no idea of the impact they’re having. The coaching job is often explicitly to help them become aware of the dynamic that they’re creating, and to make different choices about how they lead. Of course, the political culture can have a huge impact on the extent to which individuals can make effective personal change.
So I also prefer to be the gently challenging outsider, but I have learned not to discount the importance either of politics or of ego.
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Ann – Thank you. I cherish humility and am grateful you referred to me this way. Lucky you to have worked in an organization where egos were less prominent. I am in many ways appreciative of all the lessons from the “inside,” as they enable me to understand the environment my clients live in. It’s hard to get it if you haven’t been there – IMHO.
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