Am I Enough?
It bore down upon her shoulders, from the inside.
Formed a tightness in her gut.
Let it be.
Attend it with curiosity. Ask,
‘”What is this?”
She asks. It answers.
You are not enough.
You have not done enough.
You have not achieved enough.
You have not earned enough.
You are not smart enough.
You are not pretty enough.
You don’t run fast enough.
You are not enough.
She has pushed harder, more, faster, better.
Still, she hears,
You are not enough.
Then, a quiet whisper.
Come back to the NOW.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Ask,
What IS this?
What is THIS?
WHAT is this?
Tight gut softens.
Shoulders relax.
Breathing in. Breathing out.
Awareness. Curiosity. Dissipation. Transformation.
There is no such thing as enough.
It is the wrong question, the wrong measure.
Well then,
What is?
Remove the question’s mark.
What is.
What is, IS.
Not less than enough.
Not enough.
Not more than enough.
It Is.
Let IT be.
You are.
Not more than enough.
Not enough.
Not less than enough.
You are.
Let YOUR SELF be.
End of meditation on Am I enough?
For now.
Listening to ocean waves receding over stones.
Enjoying the spontaneous expressions of young children who haven’t yet learned to hide their emotions.
Taking in the scent of freesias, lilacs or salt water.
Enjoying the great, or not so great, outdoors and all variations of nature’s gifts.
At the gym.